🚀 craig . 21 . he . ill
thru a random chain of events it seems youve found my craig kin memories! welcome :)
ive been into south park for 15+ yrs and used it as a way 2 escape my childhood trauma and abuse, all leading to me turning out to be a craig tucker kinnie + having a dark sense of humor / life long hyperfix on south park that freaks people out ♡
if ur here im sure u either found this on accident or are looking for other craig kins past the yr 2020, so read on if u want ! :) if u end up being my canon mate aftr like 5+ yrs of me looking it probably means somthing. this is rlly my final resort / resting place to just unload all my craig kinnie bullshit somewhere. maybe use it as a virtual shrine to my canon:)
[ discalimer : i dont actually think im craig tucker reincarnated, lol. ive been to/am in therapy and at this point i believe kin memories r just advanced headcanons. all my memories have come to me in forms of dreams/hallucinations/psycotic episodes ( see: i am mentally ill ♡ ) and the only reason im still fixated on these fake memories are because south park is a hyperfixation ive had for so long that i expect at this point it will never leave me. ]
heres a basic rundown of the life + times of this particular craig tucker.
spoiler alert - it sucks and is sad.
early life
most of my earliest parts of life were spent with my friends in south park. main gang for me consisted of clyde, token, tweek, jimmy, and occasionally kevin, stan, or kenny.
i was never super close to my parents and my mother was always extremely distant. ive always kept to myself and adults resented me for that the second i was born. i dont know why i didnt attach to my parents, seeing as i had the capacity to attach myself to people like clyde, tweek, and kenny. i always assumed we just didnt get along or they were too stressed to properly raise kids. i was close with my sister somewhat as me and kenny and karen would play often and were close family friends. you know, dirt poor kids sticking together and all...
me and tweek started hanging out more in 4th grade after the fight we were set up in, bonded in the hospital over being weird and video games.
red was my cousin and we were close ages 3-14 but she got a little weird in her friend group snd stopped talking to me ( unless at family gatherings ). i didnt take it personally. she was also gay, a bit butch, and liked the same video games i did, so we saw eye to eye.
was close with butters in elementary school, our moms got along until they didnt and i stopped seeing him. we did finger painting and art together, also watched some tv. small stuff idk. he was also my first kiss before i knew what that was (dont tell tweek).
i have a lot of specific small memories during this period of time but mostly this was the shitty childhood that laid the foundation of my life.
ive always known i was gay to an extent even as a kid, and the trainwereck tht ended up being my love life started in early middle school.
also went over to the valmers after school sometimes, dont remember really why though.
middle + highschool
middle school was mostly more making out with my friends sometimes + feeling lost. getting drunk and smoking weed was customary on the weekends, usually with kenny + clyde + occasionally stan.
kenny and i started to come into our power in terms of supernatural abilities and started meeting up on weekends to train our powers and research the supernatural history of south park. nobody else in my memories had supernatural stuff going on, so we stuck together about that. only tweek and kenny knew about my weird shit.
during this time me and clyde had a toxic on off relationship because i didnt know how to treat people right. i used clyde for his dads beer and sex / kissing in highschool when he actually had feelings for me and that was really fucked up of me. we were "good friends" outside of the toxic shit though, we both were the only enjoyers of winter sports so we went to games with together with our dads and randy.
me and tweek were super close always, but we were really slow with anything romantic or sexual because i didnt want to fuck it up with him. he had a lot of mental health issues, and needed continuous therapy and trauma counseling after his parents were busted and imprisoned. he moved in with us and my parents opened up a lot and treated him very well. i dont know why they never treated me the same. he was also an on and off drug user, him and kenny would share the guilt of stressing me out with that. i learned to drive very quickly so i took him to and from his appointments.
i was also on/off romantically and sexually with kenny, we had a complicated relationship. it was more of a hook-up and leave sort of deal i guess. always very emotionally close though. he was very important to me. slept on my floor a lot. sometimes in my bed.
in the first year of highschool stan marsh killed himself, and that was really hard. especially for kenny and kyle, youd imagine. he had been goth for a while at this point and was living only with shaaron and shelly. he wasnt the same after their divorce and after burning bridges with everyone around him he died. we would drink together somtimes. he told me some shitty stuff. we got into spats sometimes as he liked to push my buttons. we had a fight outside the bennigans at some point and beat the shit out of eachother, but i dont remember why. butters and kenny were there also, for some reason.
late highschool was messy with drama as i was fucking tweek + clyde and kenny and they all found out around the same time. at tokens winter cabin retreat, to be exact. by the end of highschool i was no longer speaking with clyde + bebe + wendy, as they had deemed me an asshole, and were right.
the week of my highschool graduation kenny confided in me that he was really fucking sick. it was some sort of cosmic sickness or somthing, because he wasnt gonna come back this time. he didnt tell me how he got sick but i feel like he knew and hid it from me. we decided to go on a road trip in his truck and see some stuff instead of sticking around the last week of graduation. tweek was upset by this, but understood, and promised hed be waiting for me to get back. kenny died about a month into the trip. i left his body where it was and drove his truck back. didnt say anything to anyone about it but tweek. nobody cared to look for him, and i think slowly erveryone forgot him.
first + final yr of college
in the final year of my life after kenny's death i finally got my shit together and was in college for photography + painting for almost over a year.
token was a constant in my life, his parents paid for my college and he was my roomate for a period of time. he was a music/photography major and i was a photography major so we got along even better in college.
my life plan at the time was to move tweek in with me and token and start building our lives together but obviously it didnt work out that way.
i ended up dying driving on a highway at night, bleeding from a huge wound in my side and looking for a hospital. i had boxes with me, but i was alone. i think i was going back for tweek at the time. i still dont know what happened.
tweek
im sorry i was such a stubborn ass. ive gotten a lot better but i know you might not believe that, and youd be right. i really was trying to get better for you.
clyde
im sorry i was such a piece of shit and fucked with your head so much. i did genuinely love you and im sorry i mistreated you.
kenny
so why did i write all this and what do i want?
im at a time in my life where i simply dont give a fuck anymore. i realized i could type this all out and simply did ♡
its 2020, as im writing this its BEFORE the us election, have you seen the state of things?
im not looking for anyone specifically anymore, as of fall 2020 i havent found any of my canon mates and dont expect to. if u are a fellow kinnie and wanna marathon some sp over discord or just talk hcs my forever lightly active craig kin blog is here
if u read this without me linking u idk what the fuck is wrong with u but dm me were probably the same level of crazy ♡
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